Maybe it is on the face, but memories seems stronger by the week.
I have just watched his departure song, something I picked. Music to watch girls by ...Andy Williams and I am so glad I picked it. It made my cry on the day, but it brings back fond mementoes just a short while after. He loved ladies, in reality just my mum, but he appreciated ladies. I watch the video and think, he would love it.
I have recently learned the supermarket he built is to become an Aldi. I still have pictures of him building it. Gosh, do I tell Aldi , will they care? Oh well I think I'll tell them anyway.
Am I sad he died? Yes.
Do I regret his passing when he did? No I welcomed it having seen what dementia does .
Would he have wanted still to be here? Not like he was
Was he a superb dad? absolutely.
Will I ever be as good a parent? I doubt it I'm too judgemental.
